convictions of a dreamist. part2. [the unfinished]

dreams. do u have the ability to imagine? i do. never stopped dreaming ever since i got the gift. Well, all adventures must come to an end. i guess for me, it has finally ended...

i still remembered how it all started:
one normal afternoon. central Hq. remember the squeezy seed meetings on monday? rushed down to join the crowd once my school ended. still was in my acsi uniform. white shirt, dark blue trousers. shirley was teaching. typical hope teaching... paper form.. another one of those something-church series. she likes to drift away sometimes. somehow, that day it was different. the topic she drifted to somehow caught my attention. begin to start listening. then... IT came. the phrase of revelation. the words that inspired hope no matter how bleak the future seems to be.

" In God, our potential is unlimited."

If you fully grasp the meaning of the line, you would have gotten it. dreaming is not longer a mere fantasy in your mind that will never exist. It is an architect's drawing board, a platform where ideas becomes reality. We are the designer, and God is the builder. With God, impossiblity is a impossible in itself. If i were you, i would dump those pathetic pictures of a small hut which i previously thought were within my means to construct myself. i would sketch palaces and fortresses. And then i would submit them to God. He will build them. He promised. In fact, He probably build something even bigger then what you drew. By then, you will not recognize you own dream.

Eph 3:20 says
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us

Whatever you dare to dream off, He dares to surpass it. Try it. I dare you to dream of a bigger dream then God's dream.

Now, back to the subject. Why has my adventure finally ended? Some of you may be curious to find out. An adventure may end because of two reasons.
First reason: the explorer chooses to give up, and head back. Uncountless people gave up on their dreams due to numerous difficulties. Valid reason. However, just allow me to sneak in a though. Dreams without difficulties are probably not worth chasing to begin with.
Second reason: The explorer has finally reached the end of the journey. There is no reason to go on, for there is nowhere else left to go. My reason would be the latter.

Big declaration, but it is not made with the absence of a big dream. I cant seem to find something else bigger. When you keep in step with God, God's dream eventually becomes your dream. And i believe there is nothing else bigger then His dream.

My dream
i dream of seeing The revival starting in my lifetime.
i dream of seeing the world coming to know my God.
i dream of seeing the end times come to pass in my lifetime.
i dream of enduring through the 7 years. (By his grace)
And most of all,
i dream of seeing His second coming.


Of course, this requires Him to do preparation work in my heart. i believe it has already begin.
look at the parable my shirley gave me and the passages that i read in my recent quiet time.

The Parables of the Hidden Treasure and the Pearl
"The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.
"Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it. (matt 13: 44-46)

The calling of the First Disciples
and so were James and John, the sons of Zebedee, Simon's partners.
Then Jesus said to Simon, "Don't be afraid; from now on you will catch men." So they pulled their boats up on shore, left everything and followed him. (luke 5:10-11)

The Calling of Levi
After this, Jesus went out and saw a tax collector by the name of Levi sitting at his tax booth. "Follow me," Jesus said to him, and Levi got up, left everything and followed him. (luke 5:27-28)

What more can i say? God wants me to sell away something. It has to be valuable. If not, its not worth selling in the first place. Melvin and Mark pointed out something. "Its probably something thats very dear to you." i guess this is where shirley's words strike a chord deep in my heart.

"Everything is dispensable except God."
-shirley (in encounter camp)




No turning back indeed.
"No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God"
-Jesus (luke 9:62)