yo... long time nv post.. time to blog again.. man.... i cant believe im saying this ... but its been a long year.. and the year is coming to an end.. and im going to sit for my O Level's soon..

Another phase of my life is coming to an end...... secordary life... hm.. upon reflecting thru this life.. i believe i have made the most impact on others life during this period of time while my 16 years on this planet. For the better and for the worse... yes.. i made much impact.... it has also gotta be my best phase of my life as its when i choose to commit to God... been wasting my life for the past 15 years till i came to realize God's purpose for myself... many times in primary school... i always find myself lying on my bed thinking wad's the use of this life... life in a society like singapore will often make u ponder bout this... i dun wish to involve myself in a rat race.. i dun wanna be run the whole journey and then look back and ask myself "wad have i been doing thru all these year?"

No! i will not conform my life to the society trend! i will make a difference with this life... i will strive towards a purpose.. and i have found it... no.. its not the purpose the society that created for me.. its not getting good grades for the sack of it.. its not getting a top job and boasting about it.. no.. life is more then just bout surviving.. we are given life to experience God's love....... I used to think life is a curse to us.. (why out of all the million sperms... my genes had to make it to the egg?) haha.. frankly speaking.. living in a life w/o God's purpose.... its not worth living at all... wad's the use of all these cash and riches? they all just fade away..... with happiness that doesnt last, beauty that fades, suffering which is persistence, sickeness which is recurring, sadness which cant be avoided, and pain which is here to stay.. wad is the use if my life's end goal is just to say that i have been thru this and survived? im not proud to be a survivor.. there is no prize in that.. i rather jump of the cliff and die. At least i get to experience terminal velocity before my death *wink*

BUT--->
i have found a purpose that is eternal.. a purpose that gives me joy that can never be taken away.. something which i can hold on to.. even when i die.. i found God's plan for my life...... Im placed on the earth to bring joy to others, to help spread to gospel.. to indirectly rescue pple from eternal condemnation.. by bringing them to know Christ.. that is my purpose in life.. for those pple out there who have not come to realise this fact... i pray u open ur eyes, if ur seriously contented in this world.. ur sick in the mind....... sick with sin.....
its realli pitiful to see those pple .... like blind rats liddat.. running around... nv failing to look up and marvel at the wonders of God.. always contented with the maze their running in.... i guess im the rat that is place into the maze to help lead the pple to look up...

For those pple who decides to backslide, i fail to understand why. Is God's wonders less attractive then the world? i know some times the world seems to look slightly more attractive then God's great plan for u ..... but the question is.. does izit realli true? can u realli choose that path and look back after 5 years and said.. yes.. im life have changed for the better? these 5 years w/o God has been my best five years? i cant....... thus i cant agree with those who choose that path.........

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-Are we realli better of without God?-
........I doubt so..........

i BRoKe my FIRST guitar pick!!!!!!!!!!

yo.. back from saturday svc.. and clm.. cool man.. today the service was totally totally cool.. had nice praise... but most important.. thru out the whole day arh. all the teaching i receive all seem to be me talking to me. its like God telling me exactly wad to change. those kinda thing that strike ur heart. from pm, svc, wfl, clm... all the teachings are like super powerful man... haha. got extra four things to work on liao.. but wanna share bout the thing that struck me most...

its something that was said during CLM by Ps Jeff... he was telling us about serving God with passion... i came to realize that w/o passion. its realli impossible to serve all the way man... i wanna do it with a undying passion.. seriously.. just like my dream of being a musician....if i find myself doing something which i have no passion for.. i realli dunno how im going to survive..... either everything or nothing..... and i choose everything.. sorry Satan.. =P im going to serve God with passion and ur not going to stop me.

-Are u pple with me?-

man.. just finished practising my bass.. long time nv touch it already.. feels good to be playing it again.. man.... was reminded about my passion while searching for this article for my wfl hwk.. *thanks again cathy* there is this article bout this golfer who had a passion to play professional golf at the age of 16.... whether being support or not.... i think he's real cool man... not that i love golf or wad.. but i admire him for his passion.. the passion that keep him thru tough times.. with or without support.. he's going to do it.
same here man.. whether with my parent's support or without.. im going to choose a life which i have a passion to live for... even though this is my "O" level year... im not going to just follow everyone... aiming for a particular "model" life.. i will decide my own life and i will make it count......

-If there is a dream, there is a hope-

had my oral today.... haha.. no bad lah.. everything went quite well.. i was the second person.. topic was about cycling.. haha.. then i crap all the way lah (wad's else?) haha.. but i think i speak to fast.. happens sometimes when im a bit nervous.. haha.. wun feel it lah. but its a natural responsive.. (remember testimony sharing?) yeah.... just whack... my slogan.. haha. then i stumble a bit... one part in my reading. then i laugh at myself. the teachers laugh also.. then we all laugh.. haha.. no bad lah... at least i got laughing teachers... the teachers beside my group arh.. i tell u ... their gradient of the mouth dun change one.. its __________ ... its as straight as this line loh.. all were lady teachers no young one though.. so acsians couldnt use their charm as well.. =P but there will be always the skilled among the skilled, the best among the best. those that can make the teachers laugh. haha... kidding..

-Thank God for the good teachers!-

P.S: i heard of worse examiners......

yo yo!!!! im back blogging after one week.. haha..... not fasting lah.. just lazy to blog.. :P anyway.. had several cool experience to speak about...
guess wad? yesterday i went to watch hillsongs concert! its was okay lah.. bout 15 songs++... quite a number from the new album... but wad thrilled me wasnt the concert.. it was the way of entry into the concert!!!

u know wad... coz wfl ended at 6.30 sharp *time management by cathy* haha.. realli on time! then we heard from derrick that the seats were going to be filled up.. so we all rush down.. mainly those pple.. and matt's group, my group and zihui's group .. 3 taxi's in all.. then on the taxi.... we had a jam.. then i keep praying... (uh huh..applied ps jeff's teaching) P-U-S-H! Then guess wad??? we manage to reach just before the gates close...... as in SCRAP in.. realli ... by the skin of our teeth.. the width of our hair.. the atoms of our shirt.... the molecule of our sweat.. WE GOT IN!!!!

haha... we manage to get i think the last four seats loh.. then we were all so thrilled... (me, qian jin, ruisi and joseph) then while walking to our seats zihui called and said they got locked out....... that means that the door closed basically immediately after we entered... talked about blessing !!!
God reali blessed us... wah.. im seriously so amazed..... its like SO SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOO Close!!!!! haha.. i know i irritated ruisi and qian jin with my constant amazment of how we got into it.. but up to now.. frankly speaking.. im still quite amuse..and amazed!!! so blessed !!! Its exactly like wad Ps jeff said.....



When ur pray is answered so accurately, so exact, so precise
u are just left there to be in a state of wonder and bewilderment......

My relationship with my Father just took a leap...... a big one.....

oh man.. totally shagged today.... so tired! i sweated it out like a pig today man. today we had serve singapore.. then had to wake up at 6 clock to go east coast park pick litter.. however... its wasnt a problem until i realise i onli had 6 hrs to sleep, came back late from a movie of tomb raider 2 last night.. then couldnt have time to bath.. just slept *yucks* but dun worry.. i bathe before going to pick litter. (ironic eh?) then i fell asleep while travelling to newton mrt... Thank God i woke up just in time man!!! i realize something.. everytime i sleep arh.. God will SOMEhow wake me up JUST before my stop.. hahaha..... realli man.. im seriously amazed... yeah.. then we picked litter onli for bout 15 mins.. then played the rest of the day.. haha.. had Soccer within Central B and then later have district Games.. had a fun time overall.. Thank God for the hardworking pple which planned the activities... realli appreciated it! =D

Man... tmr still hafta go school even though its a ACSI holiday.. the whole school having holiday but becoz my teacher cant finish the geog b4 prelims.. so now hafta rush.. cant blame him.. its becoz of the many interruptions this year.. hiaz.. nvm.. tmr got seed.. and restructuring.. looking forward man!!! curious to know wad's the change.. hehe.. cya!

*sleepy mood*

yo... okay. i know im kinda lag.. but then yeah... the fasting ended liao.. so u pple can expect to see me online more often... as compared to the past 3 weeks... anyway.. just came back from a combine Cg today with eva and michelle
today had CB 2,3,4 combining.. haha. first time combined with them... was kinda weird.. but it went well lah.. we played captain's ball together! (its a unisex game!) yeah... it was fun man.. everyone enjoyed themselves haha.. its was fun.. samuel joined us too man! yay!! he's connected man!! so happy.....
After that we had worship.. guess wad's the songs? yep.. One desire is one of them.. the second is Great is the lord.. WAIT!!!!! i know wad u pple going to say.. its i choose one right? i know.. no doubt its my fav song... *duh* but then.. well.. just happen that the song was used loh.. realli not i keep choosing one.. realli!!!! i always try not to play it loh.. during cg or whenever.. realli.. coz i scared i might have a tendency to play becoz its my fav song.. so i purposely dun play.. but its just so happens that everytime when its my turn to play the guit.. which is a long time.. and then it had been a long time since we last play the song.. then we decided to play it loh..
*meekly* realli not i choose one........ anyway.. wanna affirm my worship leader today... which is... ......... Eva ! yeah... its the second time that we co-operate liao.. haha.. she's nervous as usual.. but overcome it in the end.. but no.. thats not wad i wanna affirm about.... coz tell a mini-story lah.. before the worship.. she was kinda having a problem with her stomach and intestines.. keep going to toilet.. stomach ache.. etc etc.. yeah.. becoz of fasting lah.. then me and ethan wasted lotsa saliva to convince her to eat. coz she was like so skinny.. i thot she was going to faint while playing captain's ball... then still liddat.. but glad to say she persevered.. didnt eat anything in the end.. but drank a bit milo to prevent her stomach from giving her more problems.. but i must say that i got lotsa things to learn from her... especially abstinence from food even in this time.. yeah.. i know.. always balance between temple of God and fasting.. but i guess if i was her.. i would have eaten...... haha.. guy's normal reaction...
yeah.. anyway.. tonight's confirmation.. lets do it guys.. lets build a cg in tchs.. i seen His power too much not to trust in Him... Cb4 shall win Tchs for God! Amen!

-I may not be a gentleman yet.... but at least im trying my best-

-Day 20 fasting Msn and Icq-

Man... just finished practising bass... haha. something more fruitful then always logging on to msn and icq.. haha. fasting almost over.. no problem man!! hee... still doing well...
wow.. gotta say that today's service is so realli cool man... many song presentations.. and nice preaching by Ps jeff.. learnt lotsa bout worship.. then even more after that during CLM.... realli got to have a better and deeper worship experience and relationship with God.. yeah man!! ... consider that fruitful since we didnt have any converts today.. we hit Goal... but no converts.. nvm! Samuel was great man! he bought down two tchs guys by himself! wow.. cool right? haha.. he first time did sharing.. not bad! he's opening up man.. quite chatty liao.. hahha..
thats goot.. beri goot... beri beri goot!
[Bing Quan.. u reading this?] *evil grinz*
yeap... then after that sit taxi back .. came home quite early.. had time to practise some bass.. man.. the bass is cool loh today.. i wanna play in future.. and David's white bass... its nice man!!! dunno why ethan say black one nicer.. nvm.. different taste lah.. =P yep....
oh yeah..... celebrated Ben's, matthew's Yun Kai, Philbert's and Teck Sin's bday today.. all august babys... with one small thousand layer cake... (trust CB pple to be so cost effective) one s.m.a.l.l cake to F-I-V-E pple...... haha.... CB buncha poor guys and gals lah.... cant help it.. nvm... we are Rich in God! =D yeah! ok ok.. stop typing now.. fingers aching from bass practise.. the exercises are realli killer man.. matt would understand how i feel...... if he got practise.. haha.. looking forward to the next one.. dunno when also. haha.

-Worship........... In spirit & In truth-

-Day 19 fasting Msn and Icq-

Wow man!!! im got to learn bass from Ethan today.. me and him went to matt's house at clementi today.. and me and matt got to learn some bass from ethan.. cool man.. can play bits and pieces of "God is Great" on bass liao.. still practising.. *man.. i got small fingers!* hahaha... yeah.. but i will practise hard.. wanna play music for God in future... =P yep.. its confirmation night again.. man. excited over tmr's service.. music filled man! and can tell that shirls is practising hard.. from her blog u can actualli sense her tiredness.. haha.. Great to have a sister that work so hard.. lets all work hard to bring visitors down too!!! Yeah!!!

-Excited over tmr!!!!!-